Always with a curiosity for expansion, the way my mind pushes at its walls I can sometimes only express with the cello. Sounds are drawn out through my fingers, kneading into my own depths to entwine with those watching. Performing has always been a way for me to share this process of self-exploration in hopes to inspire others to find their own portal towards the gritty depths of what it is to be human.
For many years creating an album was hard to wrap my mind around, as everything I do is improvisational and hard to perceive as something to commit to memory and not moment. On February 15, 2014 I decided to record a live and improvised studio concert. The intimate setting of close friends and family, and recent explorations of myself, allowed for a release that I felt deep enough to rattle my bones. Stimulus during the performance was nested deep in my voyage through sexuality, identity, expression beyond social norms and absorbing every aspect that comes with pushing boundaries internally and externally. This is a glimpse of how I express those growths.
I encourage you to find your own meaning in each song title, its associated sounds and even in the particular order that I placed each piece. I have situated the songs such that each represents a step in my recent exploration into the marrow of myself. As I send my music out to you I only ask that you find a moment of peace to sink into the sounds of this album and associate each stride to your depths and without guard.
Endless love and thanks to Mark Venezia and Jesse Zimmerman at Wind Over the Earth, Paula Landgraf, David Sidwell, Tony Arnone, Carey Bostian, Candace Wiebener, Mircea-Mihai Ticu, Tom Mitman, Sai and so many others who all provided me with a glimpse of what I am capable of. I also send my gratitude to the many friends and strangers who helped me fund this album.
I would like to dedicate this album to the visions and love forms I explore with Juliet Reid at every turn. Familiar from a time before, it is a bond that deeply inspires my music, uncontained and outstretching.
Thank you for your open ears.
To forever wandering.
Paz, Sam Rae